Today I felt existential dread

Today I felt existential dread. 

I slowly waded through my morning feeling sluggish, burdened and questioning everything. 

I found time to slow down and ask myself what I was REALLY feeling. Anxiety, isolation and existential dread came forward 🥴.

What did I do next? I told my partner that I was feeling these things. He heard me and it felt slightly better to just say it out loud. 

I thought I may be onto something so I called my dad and shared with him. He said he felt the same way and it's understandable. I began to feel lighter. Still dreadful, but less existential. 

I hadn't talked to my sister-in-law for a few days so I called her when I had a free moment next. This time I didn't feel the need to share how I was feeling, but instead enjoyed hearing about her day and being virtually together for a few moments. I left that conversation feeling supported and loved. 

My day didn't totally turn around (a bird pooped on me 10 minutes ago), but I feel more grounded and hopeful than I did this morning knowing I'm also...

🙂 Being heard.

😄 Feeling understood.

🥰 Supported and loved. 

A loving reminder to take a moment to slow down and consider mutual support and community if you're having a low or in my case dreadful day (or past week). Think about...

❓How are you REALLY feeling?

❓Who can you speak it out loud to? 

❓Where can you turn for support and community? 

I'm here for you if you need someone to listen.